Education – Not for rebels!

For a middle class person in India, society has an important role in probably every decision we make through our life. Education being one of them!

I always toed the line which my parents wanted to. Went to the best Colleges and Universities and exposed myself to a world I had not dreamt of. And once you get something which you believe that was impossible for you, you don’t want to let it go.

I hung on to this desire feeding frenzy for almost a decade before even realizing what this Education had done to me. It had killed the rebel within me. It had doused the fire that burnt within my belly in the Secondary School. It killed my ability to dream big and aim for it. Education had made me a slave to the spiral of desires.

I was able to break out of it finally in 2014 but failed to sustain. The reason, my education again. 

I always believed that I deserve better for I am well educated. Why the heck should it be? Why am I not able to kill this awkward societal reasoning?

Its been because of the people around me! They are not letting me fail! 

They want me to play safe and want me to have cushions all around me. But it would not be right to blame them completely. I am equally responsible for the decisions I have taken under this societal pressure.

But today, am again at a critical juncture where the pressure is telling me to play safe because I have kids who need education, I have parents who need care and I will have a future if I plan well!

But what I have over and above all is a wife who keeps telling me…….Bloddy Hell with everything! Let us fail again! Let us try again! Let us keep trying! We will figure out everything soon!

And I tell her back…….Preeto, we just need to be successful once, so let us try once again!

I am what I am not because of Education, but ‘inspite of it’.